A meeting... #Fiction

I went outside to meet my friend Ayush after about a year, as earlier I was living in another city and couldn't manage to meet him. I had some feelings for him but can't give the name of it because it was a different and a magnetic connection. I didn't know what was it but it bounded me with him. It attached me to him since the day I came to know about him. But I didn't pay much attention to it. As usually I am easy going and don't think much about such things.

That day a usual one... we went for shopping and all other stuff like lunch and movie. But don't know why I was feeling creepy and angry often, without any reason I guess. It was something different in meeting him. I was feeling like he is with me but still, I don't possess him. He is with me but still, I was missing him. He is with me but still, he doesn't exist.  Don't know what was that!

We traveled a lot. We bought a top for me. But still, I was cranky. I chose to take the bus to my home and my top was still in his hand. I didn't think to take top too, I was so lost. I got onto the bus but was feeling like something I missed. I wanted to go back but what was disturbing me? I was not able to understand. We had a fight, he was angry! I didn't know what was happening.

I decided to go back and meet him. I was feeling like time is leaving me and my life has stopped. It was a different, strange feeling. I came back, got down from the bus, came to the place exactly where I left him last. My top was on the surface. It was a feeling like it didn't exist, what I loved earlier, to whom I met a few minutes back, felt like I can't find him. I sat there, touched my top. That time Ayush's friend Prashant was passing through there. I said hi to him and stopped him.

I told him, I don't know why I felt strange in meeting him. When he was with me I felt like time is running faster and I may not be able to see him again. 

He told me- Kavya he is no more! He is dead! To whom you met is not a body, he is just a spirit, a ghost!!! And he lives this way only with us. With all the people from the last year!

God! What was that??? That's why I was feeling something strange when I was with him. Like in deep thought we were stuck.

For a few seconds, I felt scared about him because of how badly I behaved with him.. What if he will take revenge? I got scared for a moment.

But no he was my friend, why will he do that?

After that my all feelings got freshen up, the feelings... our chats... our magnetic connection... our calls... 

It was the time I wanted to see him again, I wanted to meet him, wanted to share my feelings, what I feel for him. And at least to see him. And don't know how and if will I be able to see him again?

I didn't know anything but I wanted to meet that's it I knew, not anything else came in my mind.

I told his friend Prashant, I wanna meet him, I wanna talk to him. Where can I find him?

He said, let's go to my Restaurant.
We headed towards that. He owns a Restaurant.

We reached and I sat in front of him. I was silent. I didn't have anything else to say. After about ten minutes a line came out of my side... How it happened?

He had an accident. But something was not over and he is still with us. He used to live life like an ordinary man.

Hmmm. Will he come here?

Yes! He will be coming in any time. He stays with me only. I have a few rooms upstairs. We live there.

Hmm Ok. A deep silence.

My emotions were collecting and just wanted to be with him. To compensate for my time with him now, which I wasted in fights.

To look into his eyes and tell him that I love him. To tell him how it feels when he is not around. The feeling of losing him breaks everything in me. We people live life like we have to live permanently on this earth. We don't value time. What we have now may or may not be with us. And when we come to know that we have lost something and may or may not be able to see that person again, it awakens us, tells us the supreme reality.

Ayush introduced music into my life. Otherwise, I was so busy in the office and in all other not so important things. We chatted late nights, we laughed together, we teased each other.

I don't want anything else. I just wanna meet him. 

Prashant, I wanna meet him. What to do?

Don't worry he will come soon here.

And my mobile started ringing. It was Ayush!!!

I didn't know how to control my emotions and talk to him. How to manage to talk to him and even say hello!

I showed my mobile to Prashant that he is calling. And by his eyes, he told me that Ayush is sitting next to me but I am not able to see him.

I picked the call.

Me- Hello!

Ayush- Yes Kavya, what are you doing?

Me- (not able to control feelings!) Can we talk face to face? Don't wanna talk on call.

Ayush- Yes sure.

I turned around and he was sitting on the same bench where I was sitting. 

Tears were in my eyes. I was speechless. No words. I just wanted to hug him and live in that silence, without exchanging a single word. Yet had lots of things to talk to him.

He gasped my emotions and probably knew everything.

He took me to his room, to make me more comfortable.

I don't know why I was not feeling scared. More than anything else I was happy to be with him. Don't know if I will get this time again or not. Because we have lost him already.

Lots of things were in my mind but I was not able to utter a single word. Was loving the silence, it was just me and him. His eyes and mine. We were sitting on the bed. He came closer to me and kissed me. It took a vibration in me. Like I met my soulmate! Like I am complete now. 

It was a deep kiss and nothing could be better than this. I came forward on him, made him lie, and came on him. Looked into his eyes. which I always wanted. There was a melody in the silence. Music was in our minds in the background. Nothing else we needed.

After so long I said- how it happened? (I asked about the accident in which he died.)

He came closer to me and closed my lips with his. And started kissing me more passionately. Didn't let me talk and didn't talk on his own too.

It was so passionate kiss! He touched all over my body and I didn't stop him. 

Can I go down? He asked to me.

I said yes. 

He came down and kissed me there. I was on top of the world, was feeling so aroused.
And his touch was so mesmerizing. I didn't want to open my eyes, didn't want to do anything else. I kissed him like never before. And hugged him to never let him go. Like there is no tomorrow. I didn't want to go home. I didn't want to believe anything else. I didn't want this night to come to an end. But it had to happen!

That night we were awake till morning, kissing each other, talking, looking into each other's eyes. Don't know when I slept hugging him.

I woke up late in the morning. Opened my eyes to see him first in the morning. He was not on the bed, might be was in the washroom or kitchen. I got down and checked but no he was not there. I searched for him everywhere but didn't find him. Called on his number, someone else picked and told me that he found this mobile on the road. I rushed outside to find him but he was nowhere.

I went downstairs and asked his friend about him.
He said, "I am also not able to find him, and might be he was with us to meet you only".

I didn't want to accept it that he is lost or I am lost. I didn't want to believe that I won't be able to see him again. Tears were not in my control, not able to stop.
I didn't have anything to say. Should I cry for not being able to see him again? Or should I feel happy about the last night that I met him, was with him, expressed my love...

I know I won't be able to see him again and I wish he will be alright wherever he is. But I am glad to meet him last night, to love him the way I wanted and the way he loved me, to look into his eyes, to touch him, to feel the silence, to express my love!!!