A day to remember

About six years ago, in 2010. I and my friend planned to stay in Jaipur itself after our graduation. I went Jaipur, searched the room for rent, booked, shifted and was waiting for her to come to Jaipur. One day she called me and started crying. Before I could understand what was going on, she told me about all her circumstances. She told that she won’t be able to come to Jaipur and I have to stay alone in that room (which I booked for both of us). Rather than searching for another room for a single person, I chose to stay in that only. I was feeling a little bad because it didn’t go according to our plan but understood her situation. I came to Jaipur only because of her. I wanted to move some other city for my job and studies but she asked me to stay in Jaipur for some more time but it had to happen in another way. And I stayed there alone and she didn’t come. But that too was fine for me. After all, we had that chemistry which couldn’t be destroyed by distance:D

I started living alone in that room. Enjoyed too. When we were together we didn’t seek anyone’s company for the party, hangout or for movies. But now the time had changed! I had many other friends too at that time in Jaipur but I didn’t enjoy everyone’s company. One friend was living near to my room but still, it was like a few drops of Juice for someone who badly needs water not anything else. (We were different poles).

On a fine week, a movie released. The name was Faltu (it was name only, if you remember a movie came by such title). The movie song “Chaar Baj Gaye fir bhi party abhi baki hai” was in everyone’s playlist. Full party song. I badly wanted to watch that movie and here comes the time when you need a companion to go out for the movie. I didn’t know whom I will go with. I thought to try with other friends too but some were busy and with some, I didn’t want to go. A whole day went in thought about what to do, how to go, or should go or shouldn’t. Let's leave this movie, will go for another movie on any other day. Not necessary to go for it if nobody is there. WAIT A MINUTE! WHY DO I NEED OTHER’S COMPANY FOR MY WISHES, FOR MY HAPPINESS???

Can’t I go alone and watch the movie?

Can’t I enjoy it on my own?

Yes… The answer was yes I will go alone for the movie no matter if someone is there or not. No matter if I have friends in the city or not. No matter if people will find it awkward. I will go alone and will enjoy it too And decided to go for the movie next day afternoon all alone!

The next day, the sun was bright! My mind was full of chaos. How it is gonna be…. How will be the experience… Will I like it or will I feel bad… How people will look at me in the theater that I came alone for the movie! Am I doing right? Everything was running in the mind and I was getting ready side by side. Was applying Kajal but still, the brain was stuck in “if and but”. According to my plan, I got ready, locked the room and came outside for the movie. The Mind was still fighting with thoughts, how will it be? Alone a movie??? How can someone watch a movie alone and can enjoy it??? That day I spent more time to get ready, wanted to look more good than any other ordinary day. Hair was wet, opened. I was falling in love with myself even more on that day

I hired an auto-rickshaw and headed to my route for the movie. I was feeling strange and happy. Strange for seriously going for a movie alone and happy that finally, I am going! It was Galaxy Theater in the Mansarovar nearby my area. The most crowded Cinema Hall at that time because it was near to many colleges and was full of 90% of youngsters! (one more reason to feel a little awkward because most people will be in groups and here I will be watching alone!

Reached the Theater! Paid for the Rickshaw and got down. Fast heartbeats!!
To whomever, I was seeing they were staring at me or maybe my brain was thinking in that way :D.

After crossing the huge crowded area, I went for the tickets. Mostly boys were there in ques. I went, waited for my turn and asked for the ticket for one person only. That boy at the ticket counter looked at me. Paused for a few seconds.. and asked one ticket? I smiled and said yes. everyone there who heard it looked at me and I came outside after getting my ticket. Thankfully I was on time and didn’t have much time to roam here and there. I entered the waiting area. I was happy to be there. The ticket was in my hand. I was very much happy and occupied with my thoughts. I noticed a group was looking at me. Might be because I was looking more good that day or because of being alone. That group was talking much and I felt they noticed me that I came alone.

Again a Que…. for movie entrance. And I got my seat... Woohoo! I was so happy to come inside finally. Was excited and waiting for the movie to start.

What!!! I saw that the same group which I noticed in the waiting area was coming by my side and had a seat beside me…..Oops... I didn’t expect it because we already exchanged looks.. Well movie started!!!

I was laughing all alone in the movie. I was realizing that I am seriously not dependent on anyone for my happiness. I was enjoying it to the fullest. When we go deeper in the movie, exactly at that time we have intervals and I don’t like to go outside in that small interval and seek some food or other stuff. Sometimes I like it too but I didn’t want to go outside that day as I was enjoying all alone so much. But that group went. Phew!!! I wanted that space.

I was sitting alone and enjoying the interval music. They came back and were looking at me and sat. By their eyes, I could grasp that they were wondering that I came alone for the movie. The person who was sitting next to me had Popcorn and offered me too. I said, no thanks. He said it is more than enough for me, you can have it. I said, then take it with you to home. And the conversation was over. Thankfully movie started

Again I was in that movie world… Party Songs… Fun… Emotions… with a happy ending.

The movie was average with a really good message, and I enjoyed it. I liked my own company and my laughter. I was so happy. A big smile was on my face. I enjoyed it a lot, not because the movie was great but because I enjoyed my own company. I was so glad that I came and didn’t stop myself because of not having a company. It was an awesome experience and I didn’t know that I will enjoy that much even alone. With my all alone company. I was on top of the world.

I came out of the Cinema Hall. And I thought to cover some distance by walking and enjoying the moment because of happiness. A big smile was on my face, songs were playing in my mind, the rhythm was in my footsteps.

EXCUSE ME! (A voice came from behind.)

I turned. It was the same group behind me (who sat next to me in movie time).

I said, yes?

One handsome boy wearing a Hat from the group said we noticed you inside that you came alone!

Yes.

You can join our company if you don’t mind.

No, it’s OK.

No, you can join. Where will you go?

Rajat Path.

Cool. It’s on our way too. Let’s join our company till Bus stand. We are also going by walk.

(I looked at them, they was looking decent. They were three boys and had two girls as well in the group. So I agreed.)

I said alright.

We started… had chit chat... But I was not much involved, I was all happy and was enjoying the moment.

That handsome guy was more talkative and started telling about himself. And I was like hmmm.

He asked why you came alone?

I said my friend, with whom I used to go for movies, is not in Jaipur so I thought to try my own company this time.

He said even I go for movies alone if I don’t have any company. And I enjoy it too.

I said OK.

He- I like to observe movies and all the concepts. I am passionate about movies.

Me- OK

He- I used to change my appearance often. People used to get surprised by my looks at every meeting. I like to experiment with my looks.

Me- okay.

( I didn’t have anything to say on it, I didn’t know much about them or might be I was lost in my great experience.)

But still, he was sounding interesting the way he was telling about himself and what all he does for his passion. It was quite interesting.

Time didn’t come to an end. We were walking, talking, sharing. One boy’s room was on the way. I don’t know why he went inside and we all were waiting for him outside. I was feeling odd why I am here? But I didn’t think much because for a few minutes only I had to be with them.
He came and joined us for going further to the bus stand to drop me.

We reached the bus stand, the boy with the Hat said, keep my number as you are all alone going and can call us if you get in trouble. I said OK. Did Tata, Bye Bye. (I knew I won’t get in trouble and was more relaxed now.)

I reached peacefully at my room. Singing, dancing, smiling all alone.

It was a great day with great enjoyment. I had a nice company too. We learn much more by traveling/exploring places alone as we have no one other than oneself to talk with. And we spend more time observing and cheering the moment, in talking to new people and making the memories.

I had a great day… Enjoyed a lot which can never be expressed exactly by words. I loved this experience, first of its kind. And of course, it was the starting. After that, I went for movies alone many times. And absolutely loved my company. Laughed alone in the theater, cried alone, smiled alone, clapped alone,  cheered alone. But never stopped me only because of not getting other’s company at that time.

A day can teach you so much, can make you more mature in a single day!

A photo from the same room, where I lived alone...